I’ve come a long long long way….

Yes…this is me…and even i don’t quite believe that it really is me…i mean what’s that look? i have definitely come a long way from where i was a year back… that almost feels like a decade back… not that I have managed to find myself an utopia or anything…but the transformation i underwent over such a short period of time surprises me…i would have actually said *scares* me…

If you had met me a month back…you would never have imagined that i too could probably make faces…crack jokes…have a sense of humor… what you would have noticed was a surly shadow that would perhaps hold your interests for a few moments…but then i would only be remembered as the fragment of reality that you would rather forget… it perhaps disturbed others.. i don’t and perhaps would never really know what the others really did think… i captivated them as the creature who had an air of a mysterious past…and that was all… I was an object…a specimen…

 

Its annoying and rather trying to bring it all out in the open again for speculation…i do like being bubbly (when i wish to be so)… Its almost as though you can let go of your past…but one never really can…it always comes back to haunt one day or the other…thankfully (for you all) today is not such a day and you shall all be spared the torture of going through with this rather sober post…

Alrighteyyyy….so…about that drink…that was no life-threatening…or for that matter any kind of threatening drink…it was *Pimms* with lemonade!

And to be completely honest i don’t think i was made for drinking at all…so the next time you plan on offering me any i think i’ll pass…heeheee…

What else…Yes… I went through a whole phase of feeling worthless of late…(really recent actually) and it just refuses to go away…real annoying!

Need to put a word in for those absolutely fantastic mind-blowing pieces of artwork that i’ve had the fortune to get a look at (more than a look actually)… I can’t quite explain how truly marvelous they are

Some of us have gone real quite…can’t really complain…not everyone is as jobless as me…but for someone who is in such a long break i sure do have a lack of *me* time terribly unfortunate really…should try working  on that now…

So what’s coming on next in here?

Well lets see…i think it would be something about…

• My crazy cooking hyper activity that had quite an unexpected happy ending
• Sad realizations about growing up all of a sudden and my new found freedom
• oh yes something about captivating virgos…interesting one that!
• A lil about a book i had set out to write after having bottled myself for 16 years…not a grand thing really…but i should put it down somewhere.
• Oh and tiny lil surprises along the way…

 

That’s enough i think…im done with the usual dose of everything…now my bed beckons me….but i also see my psp beside the pillow ensnaring me and wispering….evil schemes to keep me up …

Chow! This was so not the post i had set out to type!!! the original one was to be a page from my vacation diary! Another time perhaps… 

~ by trixy on June 27, 2008.